Harder than I thought
April 9, 2008 at 9:40 am (Uncategorized)
Allahu akbar - I am really having a harder time than I thought I would with her passing.
It seems to have taken over me - my thoughts, visions, memories, conversations. I keep just tearing up when I am just sitting doing nothing. I am stuck on Facebook. A few of my HS friends wanted a place to keep funeral info and memories so I started a memory group for her, and I keep watching to see all the beautiful yet bittersweet things people are writing about her. It seems some of her closest friends didn;t want something like this on Facebook, and if there was they wanted it from them. Understandable, I just felt bad NOT doing something, KWIM? Those of us who weren’t close to her now still wanted an outlet for grief, a place where we could learn new details about funeral arrangements and a place to just remember. I decided to keep it up, not to defy but to assist in the healing process of many others. There is a member count of almost 250 just from overnight! She really was loved.
One thing I had promised was that no info about the circumstances around her death would be given. To date, I have heard some heavy information that I would not want released about my loved one, and therefore don’t find it my place to allow others access to that information.
I dunno, I just feel so connected to her and I don’t know why.
UmmHend said,
April 14, 2008 at 11:30 am
I think you did the right thing, it’s not really fair of her other friends to be upset about that, but i’m sure you are all grieving and it’s so good of you to be understanding about it.
I pray this helps all of you to come to terms!