Realization

April 9, 2008 at 12:52 pm (Uncategorized)

It could have been me.

Allahu akbar it could have been me. Should Islam not have been written for me, I would most likely have led a similar life, if not one right beside her. I thought I was the queen of the social scene, and loved the attention and all of the drama that came with it.

Allah chose another path for me (alhamdulillah) and now I am married, having a baby mashaAllah, in our own little apartment with great friends, while I will soon have to bury an old friend who led the life I could have.

Astaghfirullah, sometimes i wonder about my decision, not whether I should have become Muslim or not as I am a firm believer, but just about small things. For example, when I used to see her pics and all the fun she was having I questioned myself “Am I missing out or being saved by not going to bars or drinking?”. Little things like that which I know are from shaytan but disruptive none the less. I don’t mean to say it was just when I saw her info, I mean everyone I knew from before Islam came into my life.

Alhamdulillah, 

Alhamdulillah, 

Alhamdulillah, 

Alhamdulillah, 

Alhamdulillah.

1 Comment

  1. UmmHend said,

    April 14, 2008 at 11:33 am

    SubhanAllah it’s so true!
    Alhamdolillah alhamdolillah!
    I see what my best friend from high school is doing now, the same old life we were living back then (very similar to what you talked about you 2 doing back then) she even remembers some of it I introduced her to :(
    Just… alhamdolillah! We are blessed to have been guided and may Allah guide our friends and families amin!

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