Aisling’s Preggo Blog

One of the beloved sheikhs has passed away on Friday in Masjid an-Nabi in Medinah - Sheikh Saleh as Saleh.

Inna lillahi waa inna ileyhi rajioon.

I am speechless and thankful to Allah for the mountains of knowledge he has left us with. May Allaah the Almighy and Most Merciful have mercy on his soul. Ameen.

Here is a message sent out by Sheikh Muhammad al-Jibaly:

As-salaamu `alaykum wa-rahmat Ullaah.

Well my apologies for not writing in a few days. I can’t even say it’s been that hectic!

I do have some news though - as of today I am officially off of work until April! My doc wants me to rest and take care of myself. Not too shabby! It couldn’t have come at a better time either - I think I would have gone crazy in that place. Ugh, it seriously is a nightmare in there.

Anyways, I am looking forward to another ultrasound next Wednesday. I’ll almost be 13 weeks! I really am hoping this will be a relief of my anxiety inshaAllah.

My Aunt came down to visit this past weekend too! It looks like she might be moving down here! Well, I mean we were house hunting with her so I think her mind is pretty made up

Wish I had more to update on!

Now that I am nearing 11 weeks, all of a sudden my symptoms surge back. I mean seriously - they should be starting to lighten up now, right?? Right???

I had an anti-food, 3 hour gag-fest where I would just randomly gag for no particular reason. Add on a side of headache and some oh-so-interesting mood swings, and you’ve El-monstro preggo!!

Same thing with tiredness - it actually was easing up. So much so that I even attempted to clean (a little, not a lot)! Then last night WHAM! Exahustion in full swing! I am writing more to keep myself awake more or less than anything. I doubt I have die-hard readers so I hope no one takes offence…

 And another new thing my baby likes to do is grow in the uterus just enough so my sciatic nerve is a real pain in the butt (pun intended). My back and rear-end is constantly in pain. When I move it hurts, when I sit it hurts, when I lie down it hurts…I think you get the picture.

But you know what? After all that I am still all wide eyed and bushy tailed when I think of the pregnancy and the baby. Awww.

Just a quick note: If you work somewhere and have a pregnant cube-neighbour, please don’t pack lunches full of strong smelling food. Your neighbour can and most likely will puke.

 Thanks.

I am 10 wks 4 days today, and I am wondering when I should tell people. I mean real people that I know. It seems I am more comfortable telling the blogging world than my real friends - go figure (introvert anyone??)

I went to a house warming on Sunday at a friends house, and tried on everything I owned to see what fit. Barely anything did, and the ones that did was a give away on the pregnancy status. Any Muslimahs know that you cant walk in a room filled with Muslimahs sporting a bit of a baby bump without people asking questions “Oh! MashaAllah! I can’t believe you didn’t tell me!” LOL.

 But my friends are mashaAllah ultra polite, so I just got a few belly stares throughout the day and some questions like “So, anything new? anything different, exciting…?” 

For someone like me, you really have to understand how extremely difficult it is for me to NOT tell friends, especially if I think they have already noticed. Like before I was Muslim, in my house my mum would go Christmas shopping and come home and tell me what she did. Then she would say “So do you wanna know what I got ya?” Of course I wanted to know! And after she tells me everything, she says, “Wanna see?”. This is how I have been PROGRAMMED - if its good news you MUST tell!  And by the way, of course when I got old enough to buy stuff for her I did the exact same things.

I am scared to tell, but also excited. What a strange feeling it is.

In all honesty, I think I will wait until I have an ultrasound AFTER 13 weeks so I know things are OK. Problem is, at the rate my belly bump is going, I may have to tell earlier than the 16 or 18 week ultrasound! We’ll see!

He’s just so wonderful mashaAllah. He has finally started to tallk about the baby like it’s real. To explain, he is somewhat worried about something going wrong again and he doesn’t want to be attached to the baby quite yet. Actually, he’d rather I not be as well but as all women know who are reading this — that’s darn near impossible! LOL

 Anyways, so it’s nice when he talk to or about the baby now. I know he is much more excited than he seems to be; he is trying to be the strong one for both of us, but I know him soooooo well. He is soooo excited! It’s just so amazing to see him excited to be a daddy. **sigh**

I also feel a little bad for him though - I am ULTRA emotional right now, so I go from welcoming him home, to wanting to cry because I missed him (or he’s talking on the phone and doesn’t say hi right away….silly, i know), then mad because he laughs because he thinks its cute, then happy again cuz he will give me a big hug!! He must think I am bonkers!

 And there is noooo way I can cook anything so he is buying a lot of take out. I get so sick when food is cooking that I don’t cook. I should try again I guess as my nausea has let up a little (and so we can save a little more money LOL). And I am so tired the house really isn’t clean and ugh, I just feel bad for him.

May Allah reward him for his patience - Ameen!

So basically as soon as I got home from out of town, I was heading off to the hospital for a follow up ultrasound from my scare last week.

Well, things look great alhamdulillah! Of course I am still not fully past the danger zone but I am getting there. I could see the baby moving a little!

It was so emotional because I have never seen my baby grow to this stage. When the ultrasound technician said that there was a heartbeat and showed me the screen, I was just so, so happy!!

 Hubby couldn’t make it (he was working across the border) so my mum came. When she was called into the room no one had told her whether everything was OK or not. So poor her - she walks in and I am in tears. So I say “The baby is fine!” and go into complete sobbing. My poor mum had no idea what I said. To her it sounded like “(sob, cry, sob sob) Baby is (sob, cry, sob sob)” LOL! I was completely incoherent! LOL

So then she said hesitant;y “The baby is….. fine?” And I said yes then we both cried! What a day. So the ultrasound tech came back in and showed us everything again. Funny thing is, when the tech moved the wand closer to the baby’s legs, we thought we saw a sprout of ’something’ down there. I thought it was a girl but who knows, maybe I am wrong! Allahu Alim!!

 Hubby was supposed to be gone until like 8 or something but I called him and told him and he came all the way from the states in like 30 minutes he was so excited. Aww, what a guy!

I just feel so relieved…

I know I am not out of the ballpark yet, but I feel better that Allah has let baby make it this far.

<3

Oh, and if you take a look at the first pic, baby is waving a little!

I have been out of town for a few days for a family emergency. I guess it’s kinda a serious, private matter so I won’t go into details, but I can say it really was an experience like no other. For the first time in i don’t even know how long, my family came together AS a family. I guess that is what tragedy can do - SubhanAllah.

**I pray your heart is healed and you come out of this a new woman, in charge of herself and her future. I hope that you find rest, relaxation and a new outlook on not only your surroundings, but yourself, so you can see all the beautiful things we see in and about you. We all love you.**

So, on Thursday (last week) I was getting weird cramping.  You know how it feels when you are just doing whatever and then a muscle twitches? On your arm or leg??? Well - it felt like that but in my uterus. I was scared  because it was a few days before in my last pregnancy that the baby stopped growing….

So i went to the hospital and after a long wait, MashaAllah the little beanlette was in there with it’s beautiful heart beating away, alhamdulillah.

They have a follow up ultrasound for me on Thursday this week inshaAllah. I pray everything is fine.

I haven’t had much of it since, but anything I have had is much less intense. One thing I do notice is when I am at work things are worse but when I am home relaxing it it easier. Allahu Alim.

Keep baby and I in your du’aas inshaAllah